I am a 68 yr. old widower. I'm not sure I can manage a relationship again. I'm enjoying my solitude. I still work, have a few friends I get together with. I enjoy a meal out by myself, hikes in the woods, and hours of time to myself. I'm perfectly happy. My daughter and her kids live with me (that's another story), so I'm not turning into a lonely hermit. Your story brings up a few good things to think about.